My Best friend is trying out for the X-Factor! A song show similar to American Idol. He is an AMAZING singer! So i think he will go on to many future rounds! if he doesn't, there must be something wrong with the judges!
I just thought about how if he were to get so far into this competition that he will be consumed by fame and money and such. I don't want that for him. No. I just thought about if he were to go so far into this thing that when he came back for a reunion in the future that he wouldn't barely remember me. That when he got here there would be hundreds of thousands of girls surrounding because he is like that... he attracts with his voice and with his looks. Now just imagine him on T.V. He will become beyond amazing and everyone will love him! And I will drift away.
I just have the plan where if he does get so far into this and forgets about me... I will/ am going to find a song that is basically saying goodbye dear friend or something along the lines of that! And i will sing it to him... and once I have finished, I will turn away and never look back! I will have to find a new Best Friend!
Which is basically impossible because, they are super hard to come by! I was lucky enough to find him! The one guy that I like, and he is going and doing this.... this thing where... yes he can share his amazing talent and such, but also I won't see him for months on end, and I will become lonely and do nothing! This amazing person.... who I say i don't deserve, someone who is totally perfect (or at least it seems) in every way! My heart wants him, my mind says otherwise... I am in a mental battle with myself!
I'll get through it and find someone else.... I don't know if he will be better, I just hope. Because.. I know he likes someone else.... someone better than me probably! Someone who understands him... Better than i already do! Someone who knows his favorite food, music, show, musical... so on! Someone to share inside jokes with! Someone to give hugs to....... I keep rambling on about all these things......
I refuse to believe that he will forget about me! But... I have seen it happen before, they come back from something like this and... they just don't care because they are to focused on their fans............ I can't bare the thought of him not being my friend. My best friend. My Very most absolutely amazingest awesomest sweetest kindest coolest most superb best friend in the whole entire world!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I suppose I should deal with it though............................. :(
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